It's so easy to get sidetracked from seeing all the good in one's life. The day to day stuff can get so overwhelming and so seemingly repetitive at times that we miss out on realizing all that God is doing around us. I personally believe that talking to God is something we can and should do all the time. Not just asking him for things or thanking him for the big stuff, but actually opening up our eyes to see the little things that God allows and designs for us to go through to direct our path on a day to day basis. Days turn into weeks, months and years, and once you start looking at all the detours and roads not taken, you start to realize that God definitely does have a plan for each of us and a special design for our lives.
I was just thinking the other day about all of the things, just in the last couple of weeks that I can thank God for, so I've decided to write them all down here. Things that I prayed for, or didn't, provisions that have been made and little extra blessings along the way.
1. Being able to save enough money to move. Part of this thanks should go to my ex-boyfriend who stepped up and payed for almost all of the bills for our old place for a couple of months so I could save all of my earnings for the move to Arizona.
2. A chance to say goodbye to all of my neighbor friends before I left.
3. No injuries while packing and got everything done on time.
4. My neighbor helping me pack the truck.
5. Decent weather while packing the truck, driving it to AZ and unloading it into storage.
6. Being able to tow my van instead of drive it across three states.
7. Safety while I traveled and stayed in different motels.
8. No break-in's or anything with the truck
9. No breakdown's on the road or problems with the vehicles while traveling.
10. Safety in camping out and not getting attacked by wild animals! LOL
11. No vehicle issues while camping and traveling around Phoenix.
12. Time to visit several apartments.
13. A chance to stay in the mountains and experience nature firsthand.
14. Bathrooms while camping.
15. Showers while camping.
16. Being able to stay with friends.
17. Making it to my friends house before my van started acting funny.
18. Being able to stay at my friends' house while working on my van.
19. Being fed at my friends' house.
20. A bed to sleep in.
21. Being able to reconnect with college friends.
22. Being able to spend time with Jenn, who is a fellow artsy person, natural food lover and sometimes-frustrated dog owner. :)))
23. Finding an apartment I really liked through following the breadcrumbs from other apartments.
24. Having God answer the question of whether to stay in Phoenix or Tucson by allowing my van to break down, therefore changing all of my plans to visit Tucson and opening up possibilities in Phoenix.
25. Having a million-and-a-half prayer warriors out there lifting up my needs and desires to a God that actually cares what happens to me.
26. My friends Jason and Jenn clearing out a room for me at their apartment and inviting me to stay until an apartment opened up for me.
27. Jenn driving me around here and there while my car was on hiatus.
28. Having kids to play with (even though sometimes I wish I did not have ears). Hehehe
29. Being able to fix my car (the first time) by myself and not breaking anything in the process.
30. Being able to afford the part for my car (the first one)
31. Finding a car place that actually knew what they were doing (the second time around) and getting the RIGHT fix this time!
32. I can return the other part for the first fix that didn't need to be done!
33. Finding out that my alternator wasn't bad.
34. My dad and step mom stepping in and helping me out in my time of need, so I could get my car fixed.
35. Consequently still having enough money to cover move-in costs for a new place to live.
36. Spending a few minutes to recheck availability at a good apartment.
37. Finding something available that I can still afford.
38. Finding an even better apartment location than what I had originally expected.
39. My friend setting up a meeting with a Mary Kay consultant, and the possibility of a fun side job.
40. The apartment I applied for being able to use my HEB income on my app. and not just my social security.
41. Being able to see mountains and a vast blue sky every single day!!
42. Getting a free month of storage with my truck rental from U-Haul.
43. Having a place to store all my crap while I find a place to live.
44. Knowing that I'm only a few hours from family.
45. Having kids and a baby to play with, friends to hang with, and a puppy that likes to play with my spunky one.
46. Knowing that I made the right decision and followed what I knew was right, even when a lot of people thought I was nuts.
47. Having the courage to leave.
48. Freeing myself to live again!
49. Going outside every night and seeing hundred's of stars in a deep blue sky.
50. Knowing there's more to come, and expecting the best.
I'm sure I'm even missing some here, and these are pretty big ones, even in the grand scheme of things. Fifty blessings in just a couple of weeks, and big blessings at that. I have so much to be thankful for!!! Things got rough there when I didn't know what was going to happen with my van, and didn't think I was going to be able to find an available apartment for another month and a half. I just kept saying to myself, "God is going to work this out. I know there's a plan here. He's got it covered. I know this is where I need to be."
I'm quite sure I will still have times of doubt, frustration, loneliness and hurt. After all, these are all the blessings! It's so much easier to get swept away in the bad stuff that happens and the stress of everything that doesn't come together like it should. It happens a LOT!! I am not some happy, sunshine-filled, everything is always great all the time kind of person, but I have to sometimes make myself count my blessings so I can see that my bad circumstances don't have to take over. And especially in the last couple of weeks I have seen some HUGE things happen in my life that I have had to stop and take notice of, and thank God for, because seriously there are just way too many things falling into place to think this is just coincidence.
When I get down in the dumps again, I'm going to have to remind myself to come back to this blog and read through this list. Then I can start another one, and another and another and as time goes on maybe it will get easier for me to notice even smaller things that happen, and be that much more grateful for all the blessings that I do not deserve but have graciously been given.